i admitted to my Facebook friends that i feel no motivation to do my job. today after school i had a few simple tasks to complete for tomorrow, simple things i should do to be at my best, and i just didn’t do them. i looked online for job postings. i looked at my library and it felt a bit like a cage, a place where i had to spend my days. i thought about the positive virtues of my work and also my job’s stability. and then i thought about what i wanted to be doing. i planned to come home and get back into it all. instead i took a nap and sat around. this is a rut or something. i don’t have free mind time to write. maybe i’m scape-goating but either way this is kinda the winter of my discontent.