One of the most desolate songs (per my memory only) on the Smiths’ The Queen is Dead album is the track “There is a Light that Never goes Out.” It is sonically depressing and lyrically about escape: “Take me out tonight where there’s music and there’s people who are young and alive driving in your car  I never never want to go home because I haven’t got one anymore…” Not exactly sure why this pops into my head tonight, as I’m on a “date” with Thom and we’re watching movies/shows about cooking and I really couldn’t be happier. And this song appears in my head. I have that feeling, the need for escape, very very often. Tonight I do not.

I did earlier this evening, and then we went for a walk. The problem is that I get in ruts. And it is difficult to get out of them. Thankfully there are people like Thom who come along and jostle my soul a bit and then I am content. I need to remember that it never goes out.