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About German Jones

I am a librarian by day; I do all sorts of things at night.

"Your best intentions may not be enough…"

It turns out I needed some help.  My new year started much like most days off: anxious optimism and a bit of procrastination.  It looked like I was about to spend the afternoon attacked by anxiety when I got a … Continue reading

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Blue Moon Rising

It’s the end of a year, a decade, and another day filled with things I planned to do. This year I hope to alleviate that stress and pressure and anxiety by simply doing instead of planning (or worrying).  That is … Continue reading

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Critics

I am obsessed with reading reviews of books, movies, and music.  I could literally spend an entire afternoon clicking on various links from Metacritic to “read full review” of almost anything.  I read them passively, with no agreement or disagreement … Continue reading

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The appointment.

We’ve been going for over a year and it used to fill me with dread.  Anxious dread.  Now it simply sits as something we still do. Tonight it is mildly inconvenient because I have work to do, but it isn’t … Continue reading

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The Gestures of Farewell

Thrashing and gasping, the body erupts. A cyclone of fear and pain. Struggling to grab hold.  Desperate to breath. Exhale.  She stands listening, waiting.  I lay remembering, preparing. The floor creaks as she shifts her weight, trying to be silent.  … Continue reading

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Considering Suicide

The concept, not any personal action.  Writing this piece for George and this is about where I am so far… Exhale.  She stands listening, waiting.  I stand remembering, preparing. The compulsion to move is replaced by movement itself.  Outside shatters … Continue reading

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Blog Confessor

Sometimes Thom and I exist in such a thick fog of stillness that I am unable to locate my self and my thoughts.  Let alone express them.  I was just musing to myself how sad it is that I really … Continue reading

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Falling in to place.

Today marks the return and the beginning.  It is the day Thom and I celebrate our anniversary.  It is also the day, as of this afternoon, that I had one of the more focused ideas in the history of my … Continue reading

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What hath German wrought?

This goes against all actual needs… This is portability for the sake of “Because I can.” (typing from my new phone.)

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Canons

Sometimes things just sort of appear.  Here is one: It is an image of the lauded Japanese writer Yukio Mishima posing as St. Sebastian.  Yukio apparently used Sebastian as a trope to describe homosexuality in his writing.  He later had … Continue reading

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