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I’ve completed the circle, so to speak. Swallowed the other half of the pill to total 10mg in my system, drugs dancing in my brain. Tomorrow I start just taking them whole, and from then on I will be my … Continue reading →

So, it is official. I am in the club. I just swallowed my first dose of psychiatrist prescribed crazy pill. Soon it will be digested and working its magic on my brain. Adjusting chemicals, re-routing impulses, and (according to all … Continue reading →

I am a victim of my own body. According to Tony, I do not always meet his requirements of absolute-sexiness-all-the-time. The following is the list he dictated to me just this morning: 1. When I wake up and my hair … Continue reading →

So, I am not a religious person. Nor am I what you would call a “believer.” I basically believe in the controlled chaos provided to us by our brain’s habit of putting some order into things it perceives. And that’s … Continue reading →

Tony, being “ironic”, has painted a silver cross on his head. “I’m ash and you’re lotion,” he jokes. Then he lifts his jacket and unbuttons his slacks to show me the red underwear he has on today. “For luck,” he … Continue reading →

type for five minutes without stopping to see if there is a chance that at some point a moment of epiphany might drip from my moving fingers and if this is indeed the case then i may go and shower … Continue reading →

I must remember to screen our movie selections more carefully. “Put your palms face down on the desk and don’t lift your feet from the floor until I return.” is now Tony’s favorite refrain before he leaves the apartment to … Continue reading →

Tonight was rough. Tears peeked through my eyes. And I had no idea why. Then I was walking home and realized I haven’t seen trees for almost a year. A tree, yes. But not miles of trees. And a yard … Continue reading →

I am not very good at milestones. In them, I invest so much potential for change. I’m not sure if I ever change much at all. Hairline recedes and beard advances. I flip the pages on my calendar. And still … Continue reading →

Today is the first day of February. One day before Groundhog day, two weeks before Valentine’s day, and three months after the dreadful Election day. So what do I celebrate today? It is the year anniversary of the day my … Continue reading →