So tonight is the last night I’ll sleep in this twin bed, beneath my orchid, hearing the active plumbing like ghostly waterfalls throughout the night. I’ve decided to move home a few days early because of situations and emotions outside of my control.

The moon is full. Luminous.

Over the past three and half weeks I’ve had a lot of time to reflect on where I’ve been and where I am. I’ve felt my shrunken personality blossom like the lovely petals of my friend the orchid. I’ve been lonely and content. Many days I’ve just been.

There are so many friends and family members showing me love and support that I’m starting to feel a bit worthy. There’s also been some neglect and detachment that has left me feeling discarded and unloveable. Feelings feelings feelings.

Overall I’ve decided that this place and this time are important to me. I’m not shying away from my reality — I’m embracing it.

Good night.