The same day I took my month sobriety coin to work so I could show a friend, the same week I had a good conversation with Thom about honesty and his remaining anxieties about my drinking, a few days before I meet with my sponsor to begin working my program… I decided to have a drink last night and potentially fuck it all up.
I have reasons and justifications: I was angry and hurt, lonely and scared, feeling overwhelmed… but those don’t mean anything against the truth of my issue. I am powerless over alcohol. And I’d committed to stay sober. And I was doing good! And then I relapsed.
So my sobriety count begins again. My guilt and shame return. And my marriage may end. And I have to figure out a way to deal with all of this and still go to work in three hours and try and keep my life from falling completely apart.
Me and Mr. Jones 
You’re not powerless. You were sober for an entire month, which proves that you’re not powerless and that liquor doesn’t control you. You are more powerful than you think, I know you are, just like I know that if your life does fall completely apart that you’ll whether that storm, just know that you don’t need to do it alone. You’ve got people who are rooting for you daily, (like that friend who you showed your one month chip to.) Don’t be ashamed or feel guilty. You’re human, and you May have relapsed but you’ll beat this demon.