Category Archives: drinking

The Beast in Me

“The beast in me Is caged by frail and fragile bars Restless by day And by night rants and rages at the stars God help the beast in me The beast in me Has had to learn to live with … Continue reading

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Routine

Supplanting another’s consciousness is a delicate balance of exploring and yielding. Because all memories are stored in meaningful layers within the folds of the brain, I do not have access to the entirety of  my new past all at once. … Continue reading

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Friday Night (de)Lights

TGIF… might as well let it all hang out. (4ish days was a good run.) 

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Couples Counseling

… is not something I enjoy. It tends to muddy the waters rather than provide clarity. I’ll admit some of the conversation is helpful, but I still end the sessions with my anxiety cup over-flowing. I’m proud to say that … Continue reading

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Boundaries

“Situational irony occurs when the exact opposite of what is meant to happen, happens…. For situational irony to occur there has to be something that leads a person to think that a particular event or situation is unlikely happen.” (Courtesy … Continue reading

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Fretting hurts

Last night I dreamt that I died. (Although it may have been my conscious fears before going to sleep that I’m remembering, because I was convinced that my heart was going to stop at some point, most likely as a … Continue reading

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Accountability 

For the sake of transforming my struggles with drinking and discipline into a dissociative identity disorder, I decided to reach out to Tony this morning and see if he could help steer this narrative. During my prep period we had … Continue reading

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