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Author Archives: German Jones
Powerless
The same day I took my month sobriety coin to work so I could show a friend, the same week I had a good conversation with Thom about honesty and his remaining anxieties about my drinking, a few days before … Continue reading
Away
The snowflakes melt on my face like tears. I am floating in the river. The emptiness inside makes me buoyant. The current tries to take me north but I get stuck along the wall. My life is controlled by friction … Continue reading
Sobriety
I woke up this morning with a lightness. I’ve made the decision to be sober. Last week it felt like stopping drinking was a punishment for my bad behavior and over indulgence. But this morning it is something I want … Continue reading
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Alcohol
So might as well make it official. Yesterday, Thom got home from a brunch I skipped to find me passed out on the floor with empty whiskey and wine bottles. He had to call a friend to help carry me … Continue reading
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Anxiety
In keeping with my habit of using chemicals to fix things… today I began taking Lexapro again on the advice of my doctor and therapist. (And to the delight of Thom.) The first time I took this medication was 12 … Continue reading
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The Beast in Me
“The beast in me Is caged by frail and fragile bars Restless by day And by night rants and rages at the stars God help the beast in me The beast in me Has had to learn to live with … Continue reading
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That Good Old Way
As much as I don’t enjoy church, I love the music you can find within. Here’s some of my favorites.
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Solstice
Woke up early. Settled my emotions. Accomplished everything on my to do list including car maintenance, hair cut, just a few glasses of wine, and cleaning up. Had a good conversation. A nice trip with Thom to the airport for … Continue reading
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Today
The beginning of this year, January 1st to be exact, I got some acute illness and spent the day vomiting and laying in bed. On that day, I didn’t have a drink. Now over 6 months later, I have achieved … Continue reading
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Me and Mr. Jones 